Tuesday, March 29, 2005

I'm Ron Weasley

I'm Ron Weasley, my all time Harry Potter character!

Which HP Kid Are You?

Saturday, March 26, 2005

puas + tak puas = puas

puas + tak puas = puas

Formula aku untuk minggu ni. Aku puas hati jawab exam hari ni, walaupun aku rasa jawapan aku banyaklah jugak yang dah menyimpang. Aku tetap rasa puas pasal aku cuba jawab sehabis baik!! (Yosh! Peace!! hehe..) Selepas dua hari menjawab paper agama, kini tamatlah sudah zaman ustazah aku... aku akan mula bukak balik bible!

Aku bukan overconfident yang aku boleh score paper ni tapi aku puas hati pasal and seronok pasal tak blur waktu exam...bertambah seronok lagi bila "inspiration" aku duduk dekat ngan aku...

Hmmm... Speaking bout my "inspiration", lepas abis exam hari tu (Wednesday, 24th) cepat-cepat aku jalan sebelah dia...konon-konon nak buat confession tu (refer entry )tapi... it turns out that I don't have the guts to do so...

Kami jalan beriringan untuk beberapa ketika (pasal tengah sesak orang suma nak keluar dewan peperiksaan). Lepas je pintu dewan, kami berpisah membawa haluan masing-masing. Aku merelakan pemergian dia. Pasrah. (Huhu...macam tulis novel melayu lak!!! Ahadiat Akasha pun gulung tikar beb!!) Tim memang kawan yang memahami, dia biarkan aku jalan beriringan dengan "inspiration" aku (Thanks, Tim!). Waktu kami berpisah, aku bagi isyarat kat Tim, "aku tak berani..." Tim senyum.

Aku ambil barang-barang yang aku tinggal kat luar hall. Payung Ada dah takde hmmm... Ada dah pulang ke kampung halaman, Simpang Pulai, Perak.

Tiba-tiba, aku berubah fikiran.
"Eh, Tim, What the hell kan? Baik aku cakap je kat dia... Bila lagi aku nak buat kerja gila cam nie..."
"Betul ko nak bagi tau dia?" Tim tanya.
"Mmm." jawabku tegas.
Pendekkan ceriter, "inspiration" aku bejalan 10meter depan aku ngan Tim. Kitorang cuba untuk jalan selaju yang boleh. Tapi laju-laju kitorang, laju lagi "inspiration" aku bejalan. Hujan turun. Makin lama makin lebat. Aku bersyukur. Kononnya dengan harapan akan stranded di tempat yang sama tapi... harapan hanya tingal harapan. Only Hope. Rupa-rupanya dia tak stranded, digagahi juga kakinya untuk terus melangkah balik ke asrama. Tinggalah aku ngan Tim, stranded pasal takde jalan yang berbumbung untuk balik ke asrama. Sekali lagi aku pasrah.

The lesson from this story is, don't be afraid to take chances! Aaaaaaa.... napelah aku tak pikir?? Aku just nak bagitau dia yang aku suka tengok dia and aku rasa dia cute je... bukannya aku nak confess yang aku cintakan dia... Aku tak puas hati dengan diri aku...

Actually, the main agenda for that day was not the confession but my examination. The confession is just the side dishes. That's why lah formula untuk minggu ni, "puas + tak puas = puas."

Sunday, March 20, 2005


Michael Schumacher... simply unbeatable. he's the best ever!
Anak Sultan Selayang

poem: Why?

poem: Why?

Why? Why? Why?
Am I still cry
When I know it's all a lie

I tried
To fight the feeling inside
But I can't hide
And I cried
And I cried

Why? Why? Why?
Am I Still cry
When I know it's all a lie...

Friday, March 18, 2005


i am so in love with this guy!!!!
Anak Sultan Selayang

Kawaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!! Takuya-san, Aishteruuuuuuuuuuu!!
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him agaaaaiiiinnnn.... love it!!
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hehe...it's takuya kimura again!!!! heheee
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aaaaaaa.........no words can describe!!!!!!!!!!
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aaaa.....gigi arnab pun gigi arnab laaa...suke!suke!suke!!!1
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hehehe....tengah angau.... suke!suke!suke!!!!
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hehe...finally i manage to find his picture from PRIDE... suke!suke!suke!!
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takuya kimura in 'Gift' errr....never heard of it... but, what the heck!
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more and more takuya kimura... i'll try to find my favorite character Satonaka Halu.. i haven't watch this series yet.
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huhu...takuya kimura.... i'm so... in love with him
Anak Sultan Selayang

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Clay AIken- Solitaire

Clay Aiken-Solitaire

There was a man, a lonely man
Who lost his love through his indifference
A heart that cared, that went unchecked
Until it died in his silence

And Solitaire's the only game in town
And every road that takes him, takes him down
And by himself, it's easy to pretend
He'll never love again

And keeping to himself he plays the game
Without her love it always ends the same
While life goes on around him everywhere
He's playing Solitaire

Another day, a lonely day
So much to say that goes unspoken
And through the night, his sleepless nights
His eyes are closed, his heart is broken

And Solitaire's the only game in town
And every road that takes him, takes him down
And by himself it's easy to pretend
She's coming back again

And keeping to himself he plays the game
Without her love it always ends the same
While life goes on around him everywhere
He's playing Solitaire

A little hope, goes up in smoke
Just how it goes, goes without sayingSolitaireee
And by himself it's easy to pretend
He'll never love again
Ohhh

And keeping to himself he plays the game
Without her love it always ends the same
While life goes on around him everywhere
He's playing SolitaireSolitaire, solitaire

Cheers for me

Its ok,
It’s alright,
Come on Atih,
Fight, fight, fight!

Gooooooooo Atih!

I dedicate this cheer to Me, Myself and I. Why? 2 reasons.
First, I did not do get good result for last semester. So, I have to work EXTRA hard for this coming final.
Secondly, I thought I can took it well when Syima told me that she saw him at Istana Budaya with his ex-girlfriend, it turns out...NOT! This is not the first time I have heard this kind of news about him. I try to tell myself that I should not get jealous coz we are more like brother and sister. But I just cannot fight this feeling... AAArgh!!! I hate this! I hate this!! Atih stop feeling like this...he is not yours!!! Fight, fight fight!!!

Ra Ra Ra

Monday, March 14, 2005

i want Takuya Kimura!!! (i know, what a crap!)

I want Takuya-saaaaaaaaan!!!

Semalam tengok PRIDE (Takuya Kimura as Satonaka Halu -Hero citer nie) ngan Amrah. BEST! BEST! Selama nie aku tak heran pun kat si Takuya ni, skang nie dia lah yang aku puja-puja... aku paling tak suka bila dah jadi macam nie. Nanti jadi kemaruk yang sangat-sangat! Walaupun tahu memang mustahil, impossible nak jumpa dia... tapi mungkin kejap je kot... "MAYBE" (Halu selalu sebut perkataan nie). Aaaahhh tapi suka sangat!!! macam nak nangis pun ada...

Friday, March 11, 2005

One week entry #1

One week Entry #1

Monday
It is so embarrassing!! They (people in HS cafe) thought it was me who scream in HS cafe because of the stupid cat!! (Refer to march, 8 entry)

Tuesday
Alright...alright... they say yesterday is history. What past is past... so, I should forget what happened yesterday no matter how embarrassing it was. Nothing really fascinating happened during the day but on the night, it really surprised me. As usual, Tuesday night, I have presentation skill and public speaking class and tonight is the final class for this semester and tonight also is the final round of public speaking competition. Well, surprisingly I am one of the finalists!! (Well done, Tih!) Alright... that is only after 3 of the contestant did not show up that night. So, I have been chose to be one of the 10 finalists. The topic given to me was Debaters makes lousy lover (haha...the best part is all the judges are debaters and I strongly agree with the topic!). Well my stand towards the topic does not really affect me coz all of them judge me professionally (no heart feeling...). In short, I did not won but my friend, Dayat won 3rd place (Congrats, Dayat! I am proud of you!). I could not wait for this weekend to tell my mom everything and I think she will be proud of me (hehe...perasan...). Even though I did not win, I did not feel bad at all...coz we celebrated the final class with with my favourite Dunkin Donut! (Naaah... that's not it). Actually, I'm kinda proud of myself coz I have been listed as one of the finalist. Therefore, Tuesday, 8th of March is quite a satisfying day.

Wednesday
Hmmm... Nothing much happened in Wednesday. Just that Me and Tim were rushing to finish up our assignments. Oh ya! I met my long lost junior in Matric, Mimi. She is still cute like before and I am really glad that we have finally met each other here in main campus. Plus, she said I am slimmer than in Matric (hehe... I am sure glad to hear that from her)

Thursday
Another satisfying day of the week. I have finished my memorization of some Surah in the Quran but still working on my assignments. I have got 2 assignments, one group assignment and the other one is individual assignment, which due 3 weeks ago... (ok Amrah, you can lecture me later...) oh, before I forget, I have received an email from my best'est' buddy (Thong Ouen Czing) in U.S. I have not heard anything from her for almost 6 month! Really miss her!! Err... one more thing, I won a prize today!! It is not a big competition or anything just a simple quiz in phonetics class and they gave prizes to those who answer correctly. I did answer their question and they gave me a small note book and a pen (I know...I know... big deal!) you can get it at the stationary shop but I already save at least RM 2++ (hehe.. do not get me wrong) I am not stingy!!

Today, Friday
Like I said in February, 24th entry, I will confessed to "my Inspiration" about how I felt about him, on the last class, which is today. It turns out that I did not get a chance to talk to him coz he is busy chasing after our lecturer. So, I guess I have to postpone it until the day of our final exam. (I will only be meeting him on that day).

Others
Congrats to Fid for the new beginning of her love life (I'm still looking for one).
Tim, I am happy for you... (You know why... Tim)
And for these people:
* Siti Nursyifa’ Mat Sulihan (Syifa)
* Faridah Azizan (Farid)
* Nor Hafizah Abdullah (Fieza)
* Nur Hasanah Md Akhir (Bold)
* Thong Ouen Czing (Thong)
* Mahirah Shahbuddin (Mahirah)
* Khadijah Came Abd Malik (Khaty)
* Summaiyyah Came Abd Malik (Sumaiyyah)
I really miss you guys sooooooooo Much!!!!

Finally, to all my friends (In UIA), I wanna say "Lets strive for the up coming final after 4 month of study it's time for us to show our real potential. Do not give up if you still have something to give, Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying".

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

It Wasn't ME!!!!!!!!!!!!

It wasn't Meeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Semalam aku makan kat HS cafe (the most happening cafe in the campus). Lepas makan, biasalah duduk lepak-lepak ngan member-member. Satu benda yang aku tak suka, kalau dah duduk kat sini, mesti melekat! Pastu, satu kerja pun tak jadi!

Actually, dah lama kau tak duduk kat situ. Bukan apa, busy... lagi pun malas lah! Buang masa.. ( I know, Amrah... I know... you mesti cakap I poyo kan?) daripada duduk kat situ baik aku balik bilik, basuh baju ke... pergi lab, update blog ke... ada gak pekdah nyer.. tak kisahla... benda yang aku nak cerita ni jadi semalam lepas kenyang menyantap, aku lepak-lepak dulu nagn member sebelum pergi kelas. Tak lama lepas tu Syima datang, baru lepas kelas tilawah katanya.

Tiba-tiba datang seekor kucing hitam, lapar, comel. Amrah memang suka kucing, dia angkat kucing tu dan belai-belai dia. Aku bagitau Amrah yang aku pun nak belai dia jugak. So, Amrah letak kucing tu kat atas meja. Aku tarik kaki depan kucing tu supaya aku boleh letak dia kat atas riba aku. Tapi Amrah cakap kaki dia kotor.. so, tak jadilah. Aku lepas kan dia, dia melompat turun.

Suddenly, I heard a girl screamed. Rupa-rupanya dia terkejut pasal kucing tu melompat. Yang tak best nya, bila orang lain menjerit, orang lain yang dapat nama. HS cafe senyap. Semua mata tertumpu pada aku. Muka aku jadi panas (blushing sebab malu) Malu Giler!!! Bukan Aku!!!!!!!!!!! Bukan Aku!!!! It wasn’t me!!! It was not me!!! Tak kuasa aku nak menjerit-jerit kat situ!!! Tidaaaaakkkkk!!!!

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

Tiba-tiba aku teringat

Tiba-tiba aku teringat...

Izinkan aku melafazkan isi hatiku
Kau yang satu,
bagiku tiada lain darimu
Pasti ku kan ubati lukamu segala kemahuanmu, kuberi
Janjiku padamu hatiku hanya untukmu

Tiada yang lain darimu
Hasratku hanyalah untuk mu
Izinkan aku lafazkan isi hatiku

Masihkah aku
Bertakhta di hatimu
Janjiku padamu
Hatiku kau perlu tahu...

Mainanku igauanku hanya perasaan yang menular
Haruskah dirimu, membenci diriku
Kupohon maaf darimu

Tiada yang lain darimu
Hasratku hanyalah untukmu
Berikan diriku
Secebis senyum tawamu

Bagaikan mentari di hati
Bila kau kembali di sisi
Kau membawa erti hidupku ini
Kembali berseri...

Bila dengar lagu ni je, aku teringat kat dia. Yelah... waktu dulu-dulu... aku pernah dedicate lagu ni kat dia tapi dia tak tahu pun.. aku bagi tau kengkawan perempuan aku je.. kiranya ala-ala "theme song" kitorang arr... aku tak pernah resa bodoh waktu aku couple dengan dia dulu Cuma, yelah! Aku ni orangnya yang lekas naik bosan and I admit salah aku gak!

Bila dah tahu things like this will happened, aku tak pernah ada initiative nak berubah pun. Tapi apa-apa pun.. benda dah jadi, nak buat macam mana, cakap apa pun tak guna.
Kitorang still remains friends and kadang-kadang bila terjumpa dia and sembang sekejap ngan dia pun aku dah rasa seronok.

Sekarang dia sudah berpunya, alah... pusing-pusing dengan senior satu course jugak! Tak berkembang langsung..hehe.. tapi tak berkembang pun, dia jugak yang bahagia! Bukan aku. But I’m happy for him. Aku jugaklah yang bertepuk sebelah tangan. Nak buat macam mana labu...dah nasib badan...

Kalau aku boleh bagitau dia apa yang aku rasa sekarang, aku nak cakap kat dia that I regretted what I did, I'm sorry. You owned a special place in my heart.
I'm sorry...